I share these quotes, not to impress you, but to give you an idea of the scope of my work. If so many others have worked with me and had their lives changed so powerfully, it will be easier for you to accept that it can happen for you as well.

The core of my work is Love. It is the single most powerful force in this universe, the glue that holds the rest of it together, and the one piece that gives all the rest value. Without it, we are not alive. We have simply fallen asleep in life’s waiting room and are dreaming out the rest of our stay here. With Love, we start to Wake. We finally begin to truly live.

I have helped many others come to know this truth and I can and would like to help you do the same. Here is some of what the others have said to me.

Some of the many quotes

I can’t begin to tell you how you’ve turned my life around.

Meeting you was one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received.

I think companies should line up to get your precious collaboration.

I would have died if you hadn’t stepped in. Now, for the first time, I’m alive and truly happy. Thank you.

Maybe that is what most people think living is. They have these superficial interactions with everybody, and then somebody like you comes along and connects with them on a much deeper level in just a few moments, and they feel a fullness where there was emptiness before.

You’ve taught me more about myself in a few weeks than I have discovered in years.

You have a remarkable gift for making people's dreams come true.

I can not thank you enough my dear man for reaching out to me. You are of the same
heart in a different body....

I wanted to let you know that I never forgot you. I don't think I ever will forget you. You are an amazing person, and I'm glad that I was able to meet you. You have done so very much for me, though I doubt you know just how much. You are truly one of the few special people that a person like me gets to meet, and in my short lived, confused life,

I'm not a Christian; I’m Hindu. Before today I did not have much of a feeling for Jesus or the Christian religion. All that has changed. Talking with you, I feel like I’ve met Jesus today.

Hola mi amigo y maestro, ayer tuve un dia exelente, gracias a usted... Y gracias a usted, tambien hable con mi madre y tuve una conversacion muy agradable creo que fue la primera vez que me da un consejo y que la escucho, estoy muy feliz pense que esto nunca sucederia. te amo y te envio mucha luz

you are an amazing person with incredible inner strength. how you manage to turn your suffering and negative events into a positive lesson with such acceptance is humbling.

Ti voglio bene mio caro saggio e pazzo amico!

You have an incredibly important job to do. The world needs you! And I will be praying for you ever single day for the rest of my life.

"Better than a thousand days of diligent study is one day with a great teacher." -- Japanese proverb …I'm grateful to have spent many days with you, Nicholas. :-)

You were the first person to introduce me to the concept of a deeper sensitivity to others. Your powers of observation and listening skills left me in perpetual awe. You showed compassion and caring to those around you, be they friend, acquaintance or stranger

I would not have survived as intact as I did had you not been there for me. I may not have survived period

Regardless of the involvements of your own life, you have been faithful and supportive with a constancy that has no equal.

I just wish I had bestowed upon you a fraction of the gift you showed me. I can start giving again now- energized, nourished, and cleansed (all that the silly purification regimens I've been observing for almost two months now could not achieve…Thank you,

How many people love you. I love you. ...and ...love you. People you meet in cafes fall in love with you and don't forget you. Strangers that meet you fall in love with you… How Beautiful You Are. How Much You Give of Yourself. How Much You Help People. How Much You Have to Give. How Wonderful You Are. How You Cut Through My Defenses (which is no small task!).

Hello my most endearing Wizard!!! It’s only been a week and a couple of your prophecies have already come true, ...I thank you deeply for your wisdom at my time of need.

I appear to be developing your ability to ask tough questions...I’ve gotten so much better at poking my own spots of discomfort (and maximum learning) my friends are finding this a bit disconcerting. Missing you. Quel suprise.

Because of what you’ve taught me, I don't just read people, in the time I spend with them I go through everything they are going through. It's a lot of processing. It hurts, but thanks to you for the first time I feel strong. mahalo :)

I was in Jerusalem a couple of days when you were there. I'm going home to Norway... Before I go, I just wanted to say to you: You have the awareness that make you ready for hearing the voice of God

I surely hope you enjoyed meeting me half so much as I enjoyed meeting you. For a brief moment I found that part of me again that still felt the heart of life beating through humanity. No one has ever even tried to see me the way you did today. In all honesty I think the fates chose you to be the entire reason I went to Italy

I am glad we connected ...I will always remember your gentleness and smile.

I just got home. I'm really exhausted, jet lagged, but I wanted to let you know that I was really happy to receive your message, and that meeting you was one of the greatest gift I received during my last stay in Italy. Thank you so much for all you've given me. A big hug and lots of peace

you have touched people, and it spirals up and out... they all remember you, love, and with love, the river that flows through you grows with joy...

Nicolas, You are a beautiful spirit

I have talked about you to everyone that wants to hear since I have returned. … A friend that I was talking to on the phone said she felt a lot of love. What can I say, I feel your presence around me. I look back and wonder if I dreamt (sp) dreamed (sp) you up? But I know what is in my heart and that is real.

Remember this, if nothing else: I love you, dearly, …I consider you as much a part of my family, if not more, than my blood relations. I miss you so much, and if I seemed whole to you, it was only because you had returned to me for a brief visit. I always feel more whole when you're around me, love, you'll always be a part of me, no matter how far you travel, or how long you're gone. I love you,

Estaba en esperanza que tu me llamaria. Muchas Gracias para la llamada, la duracion del tiempo, y los sentimientos increibles.

Nico mou, agape mou, efcharisto, tis anesti sou, kai esena anoixh cardiasas, grammatica discolo, katalava efcolo, kyrie eleison, gianni Roumi Nous Kai : ginomai, symfono, apanto, kleio.. om :)

And so, my sweet traveling friend, you're off to Brazil soon? I, as always, love you. I always have, and I always will. Time, distance and circumstance have never changed that. But I like to think that you knew that already. While I may miss your presence, the joy at having you near me, I carry you in my heart, in my spirit, and I know that I can always reach out and "feel" you.

I am delighted to have you as a friend. I also don't remember much about working with you, except the hugs. I'll always remember the "hug feeling", which was exquisite.

Wherever you are I hope there is somebody special who kisses you and softly whispers in your ear for all the distant people who love you.

...I have to give you a satisfaction : really You have helped me, I cannot know if you have helped a lots of people as you told me but I'm sure I've foundagain that force I knew I have in myself: I know I cannot be satisfied with what I have in this moment I need more, I already knew it ,but to stay with somebody who is already so richer than me had revived in me the desire to discover until where I can arrive. . . maybe I'll exceed you a day ! with love a great kiss... PS I'm sorry for my school English and the mistakes

and despite this, despite pain, and chaos, and confusion, every so often I look out and up.......and across a table of people talking, a pair of blue eyes -- the eyes I never dared look into before this year -- meet mine, and I can see the hidden smile, and the wonder that matches mine...and on the street, a man with eyes like yours, sad, down-tilted, but with joy at the core, walks towards me and smiles, and mouths the word "family,"
as we pass each other....peace, my brother, my self

I respect and revere you more than anyone else on this planet. You are truly the most beautiful person I have ever met. I cherish everything we’ve shared and love you through both you’re and my own future plans and expectations. What I mean is that apart from everything, I love and deeply respect you. Thanks for everything you have taught me and all we have shared.

Everybody loves Nicholas - so, they'll find you when there is a need :)

There are so many people who love you in the states…

You are a kindred spirit! You have beautiful energy and I know you will be a sought-after healer. I love hearing from you. Much love and luck to you

Dear Nicholas, Yes, I have found peace, beauty, simplicity, some light and truths. …ever since I met you…

Thanks for your thoughts on ... :) With all due respect brother, master shmaster. I'm not a master, I don't even know how my car works, You, on the other hand, have experienced the world and have vast cultural knowledge and intuition and the ability to use what you've learned.

You're a rare being, and even though I haven't known you long or talked to you much, I'm honored to call you a friend.

My heart is growing ; have you more secrets for me ? love and peace brother Nik.

Amazing - the wonderful energy coming through your words.

that email is a true act of grace on you're part and i deeply thank you for it. You are amazing.

I believe you are right on the nose here. Nicholas, thank you SO much for your response to me

I'm slowly changing into this person that I like a lot more, and a lot of it is thanks to you, … Thanks again for everything, you say you’re not a teacher but I still don't believe it, You've taught me more about myself in a few weeks time than I have collected in years, thanks again.

You feel other people’s pain, physical, emotional, and otherwise. You can be walking down the street and pass someone who is having a terrible day. They won’t understand it, but suddenly they’ll be having a great day. They go through the rest of the day more peaceful and happy than they have been in a long time. Why? Because you take it and heal them. [the head of the BPI-MV]

Nicholas, three years ago you told me to be cautious because you felt that was snooping around in my things. It’s three years later. I just found he had hand-copied everything I wrote in my journal at that time. I should have listened to you.

thanks for the loving support. I am very grateful to have found you...

I was talking about you yesterday. My coworker, ... talks about how cheap he is. He keeps pennies in his wallet. I brought you up, and I called you the bringer of joy (as I have in the past). I cited the example of you throwing pennies across the parking lot,
and unsuspecting folks walk out and find these pennies and have that brief moment of joy and good luck :).

Thanks, Nik! your words are very much appreciated. I am going through a tough time at work, devoting too much time to the wrong things and worrying over a promised promotion that has not happened yet. There is so much truth to what you interpreted about past loss and grief! I never really think of myself as logical, but really am deep down. I shall cherish your words and use them to learn and grow.

Thanks Nicholas. You were right, lately things have been strange. Now we are just sitting and feeling everything. It's coming a lot quicker now that we have some insight. thank you for helping us understand.

Dear Nikola, It has been about six months since I last saw you in Jerusalem. You were a great encouragement to me and you helped me open my mind and not be too narrow in my thinking.

You have explored different countries and are rich in experiences and knowledge.

Thank you always for your insights...they are not only always helpful, but subconsciously sought after. you give good talk, Nicolas, and I would love nothing more than to …pick your brain. *big hug*

if you were to move away tomorrow and we’d never cross paths again, I would be grateful to have known you. Thanks to you I live a much deeper and more meaningful life not only because of the things you have shown me, but also because of the person you are and the life you lead. You have shown me the power within myself, the force to sustain, question and live a life of integrity and truth. As I’ve said before: you are nothing short of amazing.

thanks for the loving support. I am very grateful to have found you...

I truly appreciate the time we spent together -- brief as it was. I thank you for being there and holding up some type of mirror. I appreciate your sensitivity ...

Thank you all for your unending support and love during my crisis.

Thanks for your words of encouragement. I will remember your kind words .... May God bless you for having taken the time out for writing to me. Thanks.

nothing really surprises me from you any more, love. you do, you are... what you do and what you are, and you have the potential to do anything and everything.

Just wanted to send a quick hello to say I love you. Was thinking about quirkiness and being true to self, and you popped into my mind, and I felt this incredible love. No special reason - just because.

Hello, little prince the news about the unusual things you do, places you go to don't surprise me anymore so much as they did but they always make me very happy! The words of your last message are smooth and flowing like a river. I am envious of all the visitors and people who can speak with you and "touch" the enthusiasm driving your life. Anyway I'll touch it again myself, sure. One rebirth sign: I've begun painting and writing again. You know, for the first time my drawings have let me think that soon I'll be able to paint something really beautiful . My colors have never been so bright and intense, neither so painful and sweet. As for the little poems I write it's just the same. With love,

oh man, I have been thinking about you a >lotlot
I feel as though I am gradually emerging from one of those sleeps --I actually feel your energy via your e-mail and thank you for the sharing. Thinking of you brings a smile and warm blessings

I feel much more free …I feel very tired, but much more relaxed open and free. I also forgave myself for the way i have been acting. …I am starting to experience the liberated feeling that comes from such forgiveness. …I am finding it much easier to love myself now. there are less blocks

You now see things, hear things, feel things, and know things that seem to be beyond your understanding. You feel as though there must be a Master out there.....somewhere. True, there are those whom know more of the bits and pieces here and there about what it is that you and so many others are experiencing, but there as yet remains one who has all those answers that you seek. You say you are seeking yet there is so much you already know! This is not a standardized answer that I give to anyone. You are a Master who has not yet self realized. I have not said this about anyone, but I have read your energy and it is there. This is part of what you are here for. You are here to understand the process n order to understand how to bring others up to that point you are reaching.

This section will give you some of the highlights of what I’ve been involved with over the years. It’s more of an “anecdotal resume” than a biography.

I don’t often write these stories down and have forgotten many of them as a result. Let me encourage you, if you ever start making changes in your own life, to keep a journal of all of it!

A woman called me when I was in Hawaii. She said, “I want to take a job that makes a difference in the world, but every time I try it falls apart. It’s like something is blocking me.” I asked her the same question I always ask, “What do you want?” She replied that she wanted to help people, in a non-profit type job. I *felt* it for a moment and told her she didn’t. “I do!”, she protested. “It’s what I want most.” “No. You don’t.”, I calmly insisted. She started to get defensive so I backed up and led her in through the back door. She had a good job and made a lot of money. She was from a minority group. Her father and brothers did not respect women. They respected her however, because she made more money than them. If she went to a non-profit job and made less money she would lose their respect. I explained this to her. It took under three minutes. She was astounded. “Oh my God! That’s true! I never realized…. Thank you, thank you, thank you!”

I was painting a woman’s house. She came out to talk to me and said, “I’ve heard about you. What can you tell me about me?” I told her she wouldn’t like it, but she insisted. So, I explained. “You have too much ego. It’s because you are afraid. It’s affecting your physical body. Your knees are failing, especially your left one. If you don’t correct this, you won’t be able to walk in a few years.” She gave me a disgusted look and walked away. Two weeks later I was back at her house, painting the trim. She came out and apologized. When I asked what happened, she explained. She and her husband had managed to get tickets to see John Edward. When she was there, she said, both her parents came through. They told her that she had too much ego and that it was causing her knee trouble, especially in her left knee. She told me that they told her she’d have trouble walking in a few years if she didn’t deal with it. She said she had already started making a difference.

When I first arrived in Wisconsin, I went to an inexpensive all-night restaurant. The young man who was the waiter there stopped by my table. Unprompted, I told him a little of what he really wanted in his life. He looked confused, took my order, and left. About 20 minutes later he came back, sat down, and burst into tears. He told me what I’d shared with him was exactly what he needed to hear.

A young woman was dealing with anorexia, and it had seriously impacted her health and her life. I showed her how to sit and breathe and, within three weeks, she had left all of that behind.

A young man and his friends walked up to an outdoor table where I was sitting in Mountain View, California and demanded, “I’ve heard about you! You’re the guy who … knows stuff, right?” I told him I was and he asked what I needed to do what I do. “Just a first name will do.” He gave me the first name of a young woman. Now, normally I am polite when doing this work. For this fellow though, I was less so. I got very intense when I told him to stay away from her. He was a good guy but he had a problem and this problem was screwing up her life and her little one. Till he got it sorted out, he needed to stay away. I was a bit shocked when I stopped talking, since that seemed harsh. Suddenly though, all his friends started laughing and pointing at him. He looked abashed. It seems he had a serious drug problem, had just gotten out of prison, the young lady was his girlfriend and the child was his. She had taken out a restraining order against him and he could not even get close to them until he got his drug problem under control.

There was a woman in Italy who was in her 30s and still single. She dated and told many people she cared about them (“Io ti voglio bene”) but she had never understood love. She said she’d never felt love and had no idea what it meant when someone talked about it (“Io te amo”). This had been an increasing concern of hers for years and she was very upset about it. How could she, at her age, have never cared enough about someone to say “Te amo?” We spent a day talking and sharing. Late that night we were sitting by a dock, watching the boats rock and listening to ropes creak and the small waves slap against the hulls. She started laughing maniacally. When she asked me why she was laughing I told her it was because she was afraid to cry. At that, she burst into sobs and started asking me why. “Perche!? Perche!? Perche?....” When she trailed off, I asked her “Perche che?” (Why what?). She got very silent for a time and then, tears flowing down her face, she asked, “Perche te amo?” (Why do I Love you?) It was the first time in her life she had ever felt it… and the greatest gift she could have given me.

I spent a few months as a novice monk at a monastery in Egypt. The man who was my senior is one of the most brilliant and knowledgeable Christian scholars I have ever had the pleasure to meet. He taught me so much in my time there. When I left however, he surprised me. He seemed near to tears when he said, “I’m not sure how much I’ve taught you. I’ve given you the very best of my words, but… you’ve given me the best of your silence. I feel you’ve taught me so much more than I’ve taught you.”

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The story of my life is a huge one that I've never taken the time to write down. Years of travel, wild experiences with amazing people the world-over... In time I will fill it out more completely. For now, I will quote a brief overview I have laying around.

I wrote the following when i was trying to get a book on ending the aging process published. The book still languishes looking for the right publisher.

Background – the practical

Many of those who study the more esoteric fields approach them with more open-minded acceptance than effective critical judgment. The author is in a unique position in this respect. He began his advanced study with a degree in Engineering and extensive training in critical thinking. He went on to obtain a Master’s degree in a scientific field where, among other steps, he taught statistics and research methods. He has been a consultant for fortune 100 companies throughout the U.S. and Europe. He has worked for a number of consulting institutions including the prestigious Stanford Research Institute. He also holds a Doctoral degree. In his world travels and ongoing study, the author has applied scientific methods and critical thinking techniques to everything he has discovered.

He has traveled over most of the U.S., much of Western Europe, parts of the Middle East, and Central and South America. He was a monk in Egypt, in the oldest Christian monastery in the world. He lived in a Buddhist lamasery in Paris. He spent some time at a Taoist center in the south of France. He buried himself in various eastern and western philosophies. He spent many hours with the Bedouin in the Middle East. He discussed religion, belief, theology, and passion with the most devout Muslims he could find. He studied with Native American shamen and teachers. He interviewed doctors, priests, monks, alternative healers, vodun practitioners, wiccans, fortune tellers, atheists, and fundamentalists. He talked with the homeless and with travelers, with crazy people and with the most sane and stable. He interviewed musicians, poets, philosophers, scientists, drug addicts, psychics, mystics, seers, and every other truth seeker he could find. He studied hundreds of texts in several languages. He has worked in his spare time counseling hundreds of survivors of abusive relationships. Over those many years, he has spent innumerable hours in deep prayer and meditation. He has been led to and through some truly unbelievable experiences. Some of these he feels grateful to have survived at all.

This combination of critical thinking and the scientific method with the extensive travel and research into the esoteric fields have created a unique amalgam. It has left the author in a position to explore ideas which have been overlooked by those who have followed only one of these two more traditional paths.

Background – the esoteric

The author is one of a small but growing number of "neo-shamen" or "urban shamen." A traditional (i.e. tribal) shaman lives far from the technological world, closely tied to nature. In maintaining his intimate ties with the spiritual world, he tends to avoid contact with all things "un-natural." He stays far from anything not nature-related.

At the opposite extreme is the computer engineer or computer hacker. Think “Neo” in The Matrix. He typically lives far from the natural world, tucked away in darkened rooms surrounded by humming machines, lit only by a phosphorescent glow. He is, however, deeply connected to the 'Net. He knows everything about everything in the technical world. Concrete data—ones and zeros—define his reality. The meta-physical worlds hold as little interest for him as the mundane, physical world. They lack the purity and definition of the binary bitstreams that underlie the digital realm.

The urban shaman bridges these two unique approaches. He lives in the collective unconscious and dances amongst synchronicities and paradox. He knows the ancient mysteries and walks at ease in the other worlds. Mysticism is intricately interwoven into every moment. At the same time, however, he is immersed in the technological world. He surfs the 'Net with the ease of a hacker. He surfs the heart and soul of those he encounters with the same ease. He lives in a sometimes precarious balance, linking these two diverse realities. In doing so, he brings power and energy into each. He taps the understanding of the one and applies it to the other. To each, he introduces concepts that revolutionize and redefine. He is a bridge, a powerful channel, a revolutionary teacher, and a gentle guide.


Places: I’ve traveled over most of the US, including Hawaii, seldom staying in one place long. I’ve lived in both Central and South America, several countries in Western Europe, been through Greece and Crete into the Middle East, and lived in several countries there.

Jobs: I have worked as a computer engineer, a professional hacker, a teacher, a programmer, a painter, a handyman, a plumber, a gardener, done most of the parts of construction, managed a coffee shop and a Dairy Queen, helped run a hostel in Italy, been a monk, ran a laundry, worked as a baby-sitter, been an electrician installing cell phone towers in -20 degrees Farenheit, worked as a tour guide, been a public speaker, and so many more. Whatever I feel guided to in my travels I take up for a time.

Formal studies: BSE (Bachelor of Science in Engineering) in Cognitive engineering, a field which combined computer engineering, cognitive psychology, and a critical study of languages. Purdue University, 1991. MA (Master of Arts) in Cognitive Science, a joint field based in Cognitive Psychology and including Math, Language, Sociology, Psychology, and Philosophy. Indiana University, 1995. DD (Doctorate of Divinity) in religious studies and holistic health. American Institute for Holistic Theology, 2001.

Religious and spiritual studies: I have studied: shamanism, with a few different Native American shamans; Buddhism, Zen, and Taoism with different groups in Europe; Vodun (voodoo) in New Orleans; Huna in Hawaii; Orthodox Christianity in Egypt; Fundamentalist Christianity in the mid-west of the U.S.; Scientology in California; Wicca in several places; Church history, also in several place; and about a dozen more…

Miscellaneous: I read more than 10,000 books before I was 20, graduated in the top 10 in my class, and nearly failed out of college. I've been a zen monk living in New Orleans through Mardi Gras, I lived with the buddhists in Paris, did plumbing in central france and played guitar on the streets of California and sketched in the streets of Paris. I’ve been a goth, a punk, a rebel, and a business man. I’ve taught rape prevention, languages, computers, security, and several others. I’ve studied 15 different martial arts, fencing and gymnastics. I traveled with a band for a year and ran their sound system. I’ve hiked homeless through the hills of Greece, wandered lost in the mountains of Crete, met the Arch-Bishop of Sinai and became a monk at a Greek Orthodox monastery in the Sinai desert in Egypt. I drank good scotch and smoked cigars with some of the elite among Israel’s archeologists in Jerusalem, been caught in a snow-ball fight with Palestinian youth during a freak snow storm in the old city there. I lived for a time among the indigents in Jordan was nearly thrown into prison for life trying to get into Syria. I’ve been a fundamentalist Christian, a devout atheist, an agnostic, a monk and a priest. I met a prophet in Athens and an angel in Northern Jordan. I slept outdoors in the train station in a rough part of Greece, knife in hand. I’ve hitch-hiked much of the way across the U.S. I got a ride from a man who spent the whole trip pointing out all the weapons he had in his truck. That was followed by two Native Americans who proceeded to get drunk and stoned and drive me to the worst part of some big city I barely remember. (They did finally get me where I was going, and played and sang some beautiful tribal music on the way.) I’ve had my life threatened by so many people in so many places I barely remember some of them. I did way too many drugs for a time, and once nearly got my ribs broken in a drunken brawl in London. I had 'psychic surgery' done in brazil and laser eye surgery done in Europe. I’ve written a book and am working on a few others. I’ve taught many of their intuitive Gifts and helped them learn to use them. I’ve had a lot and had nothing. I have been a healer and a teacher, a helper and a hindrance, a guide and a stumbler, a logician and a mystic, … and so much more. I’ve done things—and gotten good at them!—that I’d never even heard of in my overly well-read youth. Through it all I have learned so much of life and of Love, have grown so much in awareness and truth, and finally come to know a peace of such a depth that I’d never imagined was possible.

Peace :)

Dr. Nicholas Knoth
Meta-Intuitive Healer and Visionary
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